Friday, June 25, 2010
My girlfriend went home to visit her family for a week. She, basically partied every night with her friends. She parties alot with her little sister, and all her friends. So if she is out until 4 or 5 am, I get the excuse that she is with her family. but it's more like her sister and a slew full of guys. Anyway my issue is that she didn't even wan't to come home. So much that she extended her stay an extra night. And the day she was coming home she was texting me: "I wish I could stay :( "
I'm so flustered, I don't even know what to think anymore. Her side is that she does not get to see her family and friends and misses them very much. But it's not exactly a "Brady Bunch" family visit. Because she just parties everynight there. I fully understand she misses her family and wan't to give her space. But shouldn't she be excited to come home? Also her job requires her to be working on the road alot, probably 10 to 15 days per month, where she also likes to party late at night with her regular crew of friends that work with her. She went to Dublin Ireland for 3 weeks, and would call me every night. One night she didn't call me until like midnight my time and it was 6 am there. She said she was chasing her girlfriend all night cause she was super drunk.
I do have some issues with woman, based on past relationships. And I realize that I probably shouldn't have gotten into one until I worked out these problems, but it is too late, and we are in love. I can't get over the fact, of a past relationship with someone. Who says they love you everyday, you tell eachother about your deepest intimate emotions, to later find out that they have been fucking behind your back the whole time. (My so called friend who I put on my couch, called and told me after he moved away) so that's how I found out.
She is always asking me to marry her? Which is confusing to me, as her life of partying does not seem to fit this criteria. And before she left we found out she was pregnant, but decided she did not want it. I did but I know I can't force her, as it is a dual decision. But she just went and partied it up.
This is quite a messed up situation, I don't know if anyone has been there, or has any advice for me to say to her. Because she always seem to come up with a likely story, and turns it around on me. Which makes me feel like I am wrong. I dunno, maybe I am.