So yeah, my husband freakin likes to get online and sign up for singles sites or he'll create profiles on mocospace, myspace and all that other crap, and he gets girls to call him. He then lies to them, telling them he's a single dad (because lets face it, you can't ignore the kid in the background). Or he'll send them messages and shit, and tell them how beautiful they are. WTF?!?! He never tells me that sh*t!!! I have caught him doing this on many occasions in our 2 years of being together. He gets caught, says he's sorry, and then waits about 3 to 4 months before he f*cks up again.
At this point, I'm like, whatever, about it. F*ck it, i can't afford to move out and I can't afford for him to move out, so f*ck it right? Every man will have their flaw. Seriously, like I can hope for some great guy to walk into my life?? Please, that "hopeless romantic" part of me died years and years ago. Sometimes I miss her. awwww. Whatever.
He even said he would go to sexaholics anonymous, got in touch w/ some dude there and then never went. He just said it to make me think he was remorseful and actually wanted to change I guess. Whatever the f*ck! I got his game down now! No one is believing the lies! Reminds me of that Eminem song, Love the Way You Lie, except instead of the physical abuse, it's more emotional, or it was.
Now I'm just freakin cold about sh*t.
He says, "I Love You"----I hear, "I LIE"
He says, "I'm sorry"-----I hear, "I LIE"
He says, "I won't do it again"----I hear, "I LIE"
If times weren't so rough, and money so low, I'm pretty sure he'd be gone. Whatever I guess.
Just f*cken leave so I can mourn the loss of our relationship and what were once nice days. Eventually the stupid a*s tears will dry and guess what? I'm gonna be okay.
